A teenage girl from Macclesfield, England, reportedly wrote a note to friends who had been bullying her before committing suicide in August 2014.
Ashleigh Bowes, 14, was reportedly suffering from anorexia and depression and was receiving treatment when she killed herself on Aug. 30, 2014. She committed suicide by taking a fatal overdose of a prescription drug.
“I thought you would understand," she wrote, according to the Macclesfield Express. "I can’t stand it. You were so rude the other day. When I left the park I cried. I was losing my friends. Depression hurts. Anorexia hurts. It’s nothing to joke about. Words kill.”
An inquest into her death, which concluded on Oct. 15, heard that Ashleigh first became ill around a year before her death, according to the Mirror. Sue, Ashleigh’s mother, said her daughter began hearing voices in her head.
Ashleigh was referred to the Priory clinic for treatment. In February 2014, she reportedly told a therapist she was having suicidal thoughts.
However, she'd improved by the summer and was released around two weeks before she died.
“In the months before she died, I believe Ashleigh went around to everyone and made sure she saw them all and made them feel that she was happy. She was hiding away how she really felt but was planning it,” Ashleigh’s mother said after the inquest, according to the Macclesfield Express.
“I had no idea what she was going to do that night," she added. "She didn’t usually kiss me goodnight but that night she kissed me twice, and then she looked at me as she walked away and I’ll always remember that."
Based on the Ashleigh's internet searches and the note she wrote, the inquest ruled that Ashleigh committed suicide.
“There [was] no evidence that day about what she had been planning, no way her mum or anyone else could have been aware of that," coroner Alan Moore said at the inquest. "There were no clear indications in the five months before her death that she intended to take her own life."
Moore made no recommendations as to how the organizations involved in Bowes’ care could improve to prevent similar incidents.
“I’m stunned there were no reports on how this can be prevented in the future, but I’m glad I have fought for Ashleigh in this inquest. The main thing is that things can be improved so that this doesn’t happen to any other children,” Ashleigh’s mother said.
“It’s the worst pain in the world knowing your child suffered and had all the authorities around her but no one could pinpoint that she felt teased by friends,” she added.