Kaci Sullivan, 30, is believed to be the first man in the world to have given birth to a child while living both as a man and as a woman, and now, he and his partner have revealed they'll be raising their new baby "gender neutral."
Five years prior, Sullivan gave birth to a son and named him Grayson, while still being married to the child's father and presenting himself as female, reports Inside Edition.
The business student conceived with his partner, Steven, who is 27 years old, in February 2017 after having taken a break from taking male hormones.
Sullivan underwent a Cesarean section following a labor that reportedly lasted seven days. Finally, baby Phoenix was welcomed into the world and will be raised as "gender neutral." The parents are choosing not to reveal the 8-pound 9-ounce baby’s sex yet.
"We are just so happy and grateful and enjoying spending time together as a family," Sullivan said. "The baby is delightful, loving and sweet. The last nine months have brought my partner and I so close together."
"Throughout the experience, I prayed to connect with womanhood, to identify with what was happening to my body, but I couldn't,” he said. "I felt so hopeless and lost. I wanted to die. I fell into such a dark place and I was terrified to bring a baby into that darkness with me.”
All of these problems are said to have changed when their son Grayson was born.
"But the moment they put him in my arms it was bliss. Immediately I loved him like I had never loved anything or anyone and I felt such a surge of duty to him,” Sullivan said.
Three months after baby Grayson was born, Sullivan came out of the closet as a transgender and confessed that he “felt like a ton of bricks” had been lifted.
Sullivan reportedly documented each stage of pregnancy, right up until birth. He posted regularly on social media, mostly through his YouTube channel, which he named My Trans Pregnancy.
"As my bump grew bigger and bigger I got nervous going out in public because people would stare. They noticed my abnormal shape,” Sullivan said. "There was a lot of anxiety but the most important thing for me was sending the message that pregnancy is not a gendered thing."
The couple admitted to having faced criticism both online and in public all throughout the pregnancy.
"Some people have been perturbed by the idea of me giving birth but I don't engage or respond to them. If I see those comments I just get rid of them,” Sullivan confessed. "They will try and find our safe space and violate it with their opinions, but they are jerks.”
Sullivan also admitted that the pregnancy didn’t make him feel any less masculine.
"Because I don't see pregnancy as inherently feminine, and because I don't subscribe to make-believe gender roles, I wasn't threatened by the idea of pregnancy,” Sullivan said. "Our sex and gender identity have nothing to do with socially constructed gender roles. The architecture of your brain does not change depending on what color you are dressed in as a baby."