Susan Smith, who was convicted of killing her two children 20 years ago, is seeking sympathy.
The murderer recently sent a letter to the newspaper The State, explaining her side of the story. Currently at a South Carolina prison, the now 43-year-old woman was sentenced to life after confessing to the crime, reports the Daily Mail.
“Mr. Cahill, I am not the monster society thinks I am. I am far from it,” Smith wrote to The State's reporter Harrison Cahill.
In 1994, Smith strapped her sons Michael, 3, and Alex, 14 months old, into their car seats and then pushed her car into a lake in the small South Carolina town of Union, according to NBC News. That same day, she reported to the police that her car with her children had been forcibly taken by an unidentified black man. She went on national television and wept for her children’s safe return.
Nine days later, the bodies of the boys were found in the lake and Smith confessed. Prosecutors pushed for the death penalty, but she instead was sentenced to life in prison, reports NBC News.
In her recent letter, she tries to change the image society has of her.
"It has been hard to listen to lie after lie and not be able to defend myself. It's frustrating to say the least,” the letter read. “Something went very wrong that night. I was a good mother and I loved my boys ... I was not in my right mind.”
Smith explains in the letter she lied about the black man taking her car because she “didn't know how to tell the people who loved Michael and Alex.”
Smith uses the letter to try to change the perception that she killed her children in response to her lover leaving her. Smith explains, “The thing that hurts me the most is that people think I hurt my children in order to be with a man. That is so far from the truth.”
Smith claims this letter only contains "only a small piece of the story," NBC News reports.