Actor Brad Pitt has confessed publicly that he had a drinking problem that contributed to the breakdown of his marriage to actress Angelina Jolie, who filed for divorce in September 2016.
The comments came during a wide-ranging interview with GQ, in which the 53-year-old actor said he is "personally very retarded when it comes to taking inventory" of his feelings.
Since his split with Jolie, Pitt has stopped drinking and has reportedly started seeing a therapist.
"You know, I just started therapy," he said. "I love it, I love it. I went through two therapists to get to the right one."
The actor admitted that he turned to alcohol -- which he described as a "hollow pursuit" -- as a way to avoid confronting his emotions.
"I mean I stopped everything except boozing when I started my family," he told the magazine. "But even this last year, you know -- things I wasn't dealing with. I was boozing too much. It's just become a problem."
"I mean, we have a winery," he continued. "I enjoy wine very, very much, but I just ran it to the ground. I had to step away for a minute. And truthfully I could drink a Russian under the table with his own vodka. I was a professional. I was good."
He now drinks "cranberry juice and fizzy water" in place of alcohol.
"I've got the cleanest urinary tract in all of L.A., I guarantee you," he joked. "But the terrible thing is I tend to run things into the ground. That's why I've got to make something so calamitous. I've got to run it off a cliff."
Pitt said his divorce has given him perspective and made him aware of his shortcomings as a father.
"I grew up with a Father-knows-best/war mentality -- the father is all-powerful, super strong -- instead of really knowing the man and his own self-doubt and struggles," he said. "And it's hit me smack in the face with our divorce: I gotta be more. I gotta be more for them. I have to show them. And I haven't been great at it."
"Family first," he added. "People on their deathbeds don't talk about what they obtained or were awarded. They talk about their loved ones or their regrets -- that seems to be the menu."
Asked how he plans to explain the current situation to his six children, Pitt said it's important to be honest.
"There's a lot to tell them because there's understanding the future, there's understanding the immediate moment and why we're at this point, and then it brings up a lot of issues from the past that we haven't talked about," he said. "So our focus is that everyone comes out stronger and better people -- there is no other outcome."
In March, Entertainment Tonight reported that Pitt and Jolie were in direct communication with each other to work out their custody issues, adding that Pitt was spending a lot more time with the kids, whose ages range from 8 to 15.
"It's still in the process of being resolved," a source told ET. "Brad knows Angelina is a really good mom."