Australian Woman Opens Up About What Sparked Her Eating Disorder

| by Amanda Andrade-Rhoades
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Four years ago, 38-year-old Jodi Cahill, a public relations executive from Melbourne, Australia, received a letter from her estranged mother explaining the circumstances of Jodi’s conception. 

After years of abuse, Jodi’s grandfather, Raymond, raped Jodi’s mother, reports.

Jodi’s mother wrote: “Jodi, you and I share the same father. From a very young age I suffered abuse of every kind from our father. The night I was brutally raped and fell pregnant I will remember for the rest of my life.”

Jodi’s mother alleged she was raped at gun point by her father, Raymond; according to her, it was this gruesome act that led to Jodi's birth.

“I was so in shock and disgusted. That night I tried to jump off a bridge. I didn't know what to do with it [the news],” Jodi told The Daily Mail.

Jodi survived the suicide attempt, but her life began to unravel. She threw herself into work and developed anorexia.

“When I felt empty I felt okay," she said. "I could on concentrate on how empty my stomach felt, which is kind of ironic.”

Jodi was eventually hospitalized for the eating disorder.

“I was fed from a tube for about four months,” she said.

Jodi, who is still in recovery for anorexia, explained that her mother's letter helped explain her own childhood. Jodi was reportedly raised by her divorced grandmother, Juanita, after her mother developed psychosis.

“Everything that happened when I was little really made sense to me," Jodie said. "She was always in and out of hospital. She only told someone about it about 10 years ago.

"She threatened to kill me with a gun once. She told the police she had a gun and she was coming for me.

“It must have been horrific for her every day to look at me as a reminder. Everything makes sense now.

“She told me: ‘Every time I look at you it's a reminder of what happened, it reminds me of him.’”

Jodi hopes her story can help others.

“'Every day is hard," she said. "This is first time in five months I haven’t touched anything related to eating disorders. I just want to focus on how I can help. I'm as healed as I can be.

“ ... It's all about your mindset. You can have the best doctors and the best friends, but if you don't hate the anorexia as much as you hate yourself, you won't beat it.”

Sources: The Daily Mail, Metro

Photo Credit: Jodi Cahill via The Daily Mail, Metro