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Transgender Woman Posts Suicide Note With Plea For Change: 'Please Help Fix Society'

| by Kathryn Schroeder
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A transgender woman from Logan, Utah, who committed suicide on a U.S. highway, asked that her final words, written on Facebook, be shared to try and institute change.

“These are going to be my final words,” Ashley Hallstrom wrote on Facebook, according to The Herald Journal. “I can’t stand to live another day, so I’m committing suicide. The reason why I’ve decided to do this is because I’m transgender. For those of you unsure of what that means, it means that even though I was born in a male body, I am and have always been female."

“Please share my final words," Hallstrom wrote. "I believe my last words can help make the change that society needs to make so that one day there will be no others like me. Please help make this change because trans people are everywhere. You may never know who you’re hurting until it’s too late.

“Please help fix society.”

Hallstrom committed suicide on Oct. 14 by walking into traffic on U.S. Highway 89/91 in south Logan.

Police have determined her death was intentional and the dump truck driver who hit her is not at fault.

"It is believed the act was intentional," Gary Jensen, public information officer for the Logan City Police Department, said in a statement obtained by PEOPLE. "Evidence gives every indication the driver attempted to swerve and brake to avoid the collision."

Hallstrom’s death has one LGBT group in Utah reaching out to others who may be in need of support.

"LGBTQ youth need our love and support," Troy Williams, director of Equality Utah, told PEOPLE. "We need to create a culture where all youth know they are valued and that they have beautiful gifts to offer the world. It's important that youth know there are resources like The Trevor Project available in times of crisis. Sadly, rural communities often lack affirming LGBTQ networks. Clearly we have a lot of work to do."

Hallstrom added in her final Facebook post that she was writing in order to not be “just another number of a tragic statistic.”

"I'm writing all of this because I need my story [to] be shared," Hallstrom wrote. "I don't want to be just another number of a tragic statistic. People need to know that I'm not just another face of someone they never met. I was alive. I have a family and friends that I love very much and I'm so sorry to them for the hurt this will cause them. I loved being around those that I love. I loved listening to music and singing. I loved going out to eat with friends and enjoying good food. I was a real person."

Friends of Hallstrom’s responded to the post with the hope that they could stop her from committing suicide, but their replies came too late.

"Ashley, I know you've been through so much," a friend wrote, PEOPLE reports. "But you have friends that care about you and stand with you through this. You have been through one of life's hardest burdens, but don't think for a second you wouldn't be missed."

Hallstrom’s words have been shared to various social channels, with people joining in on her plea for greater acceptance.

“No more trans people committing suicide,” a woman in Maryland wrote in a post found by The Herald Journal. “Every loss is a tragedy. It means that we did not reach out in love with a smile, a kind word, a touch. So little can mean so much. Talk to someone, reach out to your family and your friends and be on the lookout for those who are withdrawing because their pain is becoming unbearable. We can help each other.”

A woman who knew Hallstrom while they worked together at Blimpie shared her thoughts.

“It is heartbreaking to know that she is gone and dealt with such a difficult and unfair life,” the woman wrote. “I hope that all of us can learn from this and to accept and love those who are different. Rest in paradise, Ashley. There are many people who will miss you. You taught me a wonderful life lesson. My heart goes out to her friends and family.”

A woman in South Carolina posted that she had to pull her car over because of the tears that came after learning of Hallstrom’s death.

Calls for support of the driver who hit Hallstrom have also been made on social media. People want to ensure he has the help and emotional support he needs in the aftermath of her death.

Sources: The Herald Journal, PEOPLE / Photo credit: The Herald Journal