Michelle Williams: I Should Have Kept Heath Ledger Private

| by Oh The Scandal

Michelle Williams has been pulled through the ringer again, causing her to regret speaking out about her late partner Heath Ledger on Nightline.

Williams stat down for a three hour interview with the ABC News programme in December, in which the Blue Valentine actress opened up about the 2008 death of Ledger.

The actress has since spoken of her regret of opening up about her loss, and expressed her disappointment at the way her interview was presented.

“It all becomes rather tricky [talking about Ledger] because I don’t want to say something without resonance but then I don’t want to go too far,” she told Kevin Sessums of The Daily Beast.

“Just recently I felt as if I did cross a line about all this,” Williams explained. “Yet if I’m going to do interviews and be in this world, I don’t want to seem as if I’m just taking a party line. I want to say something that is representative of who I am and what I’m thinking about and what matters to me in the same ways that I want to do that in my work because my work and my life do feed off each other. The two do go together.

“I just had an experience with Nightline that got edited in such a way that seemed as if I did go too far. It was a three-hour interview that was edited in such a way that was devastating to me.”

She added, “They used those few quotes and the way they edited the piece to sell the interview, and it appeared as if I were breaking some kind of silence and sitting down with the express purpose to discuss something that is very private to me.”

Williams admits that although she wishes to keep many aspects of herself private, she likes to discuss the memories of Ledger with close friends and often opens up naturally.

“And I say, ‘OK, this subject is off-limits if it is going to be convoluted and re-contextualized.’ … But then I sit down with you and feel compelled to talk about it so it is a struggle.”

This is a struggle she has been trying to balance since Ledger’s death.

“I experienced a lot of loss after his death. I lost my city because of all the paparazzi descending upon us. I actually lost my journal during that time, oddly enough. I literally couldn’t hold on to anything. It felt as if things were literally slipping through my fingers. Things were just streaming away from me. I lost my sense of humor. I’m still sort of looking for that.”

Despite her obvious heartache, Williams is in a much happier place these days and has just celebrated Christmas with her daughter Matilda.

“[Matilda] wrote two letters to Santa the night before. The first one was ‘Dear Santa, How is your wife, Mrs. Claus?’ The second was ‘Dear Santa, I hope you have a good summer next year.’”

Such is life in the public eye. I can’t help but feel sorry for Williams in this type of situation, finding the right balance and having to watch exactly what you say in case your words will be edited out of context simply to sell the story.