Alternative to Horror

Visit a slaughterhouse, factory farm operation. Not that you'd be allowed to, these places hide themselves as much as possible, for good reason.
The closest most of us can get are the undercover videos , which are sad beyond words. No living creature deserves what is done to them.
There are farms and farmers who practice responsibly, who treat their animals well, who value them and care for them. Mostly they are small farms, but they are everywhere.
Check out eatwell.org...wonderful info there whatever you choose to eat.